Rethinking Everything

not having one of my good days. im ill, been sick through the night and most of the day. stayed home to recover, do work and revise.

The True Friends- had time to myself, empty house, silence and i sat in my room with my music playing and decided to think over things, clear my conscience. it went from guilt to anger to friendship...realised that theres only a small few that i can really call 'friends'. there are also the fake few who keep you sweet but when it comes down to it, you find they are NEVER there for you. they are the ones that have so much to say however it never involves saying those things to your face. whether its small things, they are the people you know you can not turn to.
friendship shouldnt be about whos better than who? whos smarter than you or whos going to return the favour. ide like to think that with the friends i can call friends, that i can rely on them, tell them things without having them tell someone else exactly what i feel (the snakes, the hardcore snitches). ide like to think that my friends arent the people that make excuses, lie, say one thing behind my back but to my face act like were 'kool'. friends arent the ones that say they cant make it, but then go somewhere else.
i know who i can turn to. i know my true friends. i would rather have a few true friends than lots of fake ones.

Ending The Cycle- '♪why is it so hard to say goodbye,i cant wait to hate you..'

starting to avoid you as i feel myself being trapped again. finally ending the confusing cycle.