okay this is so cliche, clique? (how the hell do you spell the damn word?) anyways this is becoming CLI-SHAY! however it is spelt lol. its one of them feelings where you know there are people out there that will always be there for me, but never there for the nitty gritty (lord i sound like my brother- nitty gritty. spending too much time at home i am lol) NO SERIOUSLY i have to stop making this blog a joke coz i actually feel genuinly annoyed by this...
okay so im kinda annoyed today of all days because i feel as if the ones that i was and am dependant on seem to be the very few that know how to, i would say 'push me away' but its not that, its more like talk to me, not talk to me, then talk to me try be sarky then make me want to step on their foot lol (its the only way i could put it). like it never used to be this way, we used to go on for days even weeks without saying a word to one another but i feel like this time its so different its scary. because before we even went without phone calls, texts, acknowledgment when we'd walk past eachother and see eachother, but i think we got so used to thinking we were really really close that we stopped talking depending on the next time we'd talk for everything to be fine...which it isnt, is it? we got so comfortable with not talking to eachother, thinking that we're still okay that we have literally grown apart, and it makes me genuinly sad and lost. i just feel like we are trying so hard to act like how it used to be, knowing that it isnt the same and we've changed. there is nothing i have to say to you. there is nothing i can do. there is nothing i want to do. its as if im sad at what is happening but i dont want to do anything about it. this has happened before and we sorted it, but this sarkiness that we all give to one another is bullcrap and so 6 years ago. lets go back to when we used to be there for eachother no matter what instead of being there only for the 'nitty gritty'.
and whats really ironic to me is how we talked about this, how our friendship can only go so far, how its either we'll change and drift apart, or our long freindship will stay as it is- long. i know we are MUCH better than this spitefulness. so?
It's so sad but it happens to all of us unfortunately ... sometimes when u step out of a friendship u realise that it was never really a friendship at all ... just ask yourself this when u were not talking for a while did u miss them? where u thinking of them? where u really and truely happy when u wern't talking?
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